I am a mum of four girls, and carer to my former partner and best friend of eight years, Chris who is diagnosed BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) with suspected Bipolar. This is my blog about my life as a mum, a carer and occasionally just Sarah. My ambition in life is to become a Mental Health Nurse. I will share with you some of the things we have already been through and what we have yet to come.
I met Chris in 2004, we were just good friends until everything changed in 2005 and I moved from my home in London to be with him. I fell pregnant with our first daughter in 2006, since then we have gone on to have three more beautiful girls in 2008, 2010 and 2012.
Chris was diagnosed unknowns to us back in 2005 with Borderline Personality Disorder around the time he first spent a week in a Psychiatric hospital. He has gone on to be admitted numerous times for varying reasons since, and has possibly got another diagnosis of Bipolar. Through all the hard times I have stuck by him through thick and thin, providing love and support and it was not until 2010 I actually accepted and recognised myself as Chris carer. Sadly in December 2013 after Chris spending most of the year in hospital and getting worse and worse I made the very brave decision to end our relationship. I did this as much for his sake as my own. It was killing me trying to look after everyone and by taking a step back I was hoping that he would learn to fight for himself and open up more to those that could help. I continue to care for him and in many respects not a lot has changed.
I started this Blog because it became apparent to me that Carers often get forgotten, such important people that do such an important job that fade into the background. I wanted to tell my story, how I see things and my experiences to help others, especially other mental health carer’s feel less alone. If you are reading this and care for a loved one, get in touch and say hello. The most important thing to remember is you are not alone.
PLEASE NOTE topics discussed on my blog can be triggering and emotionally difficult to read. Please be cautious and take care when reading.