As much as I protect my girls, Chris is their dad, they will always be affected by his illness and there is little I can do to change that but support them the best I can. I hope that Daddy being unwell will be a positive for them in the long run as hopefully it will make them less judgemental and more accepting of everyone from all walks of life. I know how amazing they are, I could talk about how proud of all four of them I am every moment of every day. I am constantly amazed by their courage and bravery considering how much they have been through at such a young age, yet they rarely grumble.
I went to parents evening last night for my six and four year old, I always keep the school in the loop as to what is happening with Chris so they can support the girls and be understanding of their needs. I went with the frame of mind that they were both probably slightly behind and a bit unsettled because of everything they have to deal with. I was shocked to find out they are both working to where they should be and above. Their behaviour is good and they both have a nice circle of friends and play nicely with other children. I was so relieved and happy to find this out; I try so hard to keep life relatively normal for them and to make them feel supported. I felt last night I must be doing something right.
It is tough to listen to them saying how much they miss Daddy, it is tough to know how best to support them sometimes other than letting them know they can always talk to me. If they rather talk to someone else I stress that they can at school and that is always ok. I supply copious amounts of cuddles, kisses and love and hope that I can make up slightly for the fact at the moment there is just me. I try and keep them informed with what is happening and we talk about Daddy a lot so he is very much still a part of the little ones lives too. There is no denying that when I am on my own and have time to think about everything that as much as I could burst with pride I am always filled with sadness, after all it is those four faces, those amazing little people I do everything for.