I waved goodbye to my old house and started to make my new one home. It was quite a sad day, after all, three of my children were born in that house, it held many memories for the four and a half years we had lived there, some good, some bad. As I entered our empty house for the last time the alarm on the door made the familiar beep beep beep, only this time it echoed around the empty house. I had a quick check around to see if we had everything, while all the time reminding myself we were starting a new chapter. As I closed the door and locked it sadness filled me, I knew it would go soon but that was once our home.
Our current house is bigger, but like our last home it takes a while for everything to end up in its place and cardboard boxes seem to just become part of life while you try and settle in. I have managed to get through a fair few but let’s face it, there could well be some still there at Christmas. I am not going to put pressure on myself because it has been such a difficult task, upheaval for everyone, for the children, new house, separate bedrooms, the day we moved, being looked after all day by Grandad, the list is endless. Then there has been Chris, who was for most of the time overwhelmed by the task ahead, and probably still is, he felt worried about being in different surroundings, it was upheaval to his support from professionals and medication ended up not always taken at the correct times. Then for me there was trying to coordinate the move, the children, Chris, who is where, what needs to be done, essentials unpacked, making our house safe for the girls, building the beds again to name just a few. I know with time we will get there as far as the house is concerned and we need to concentrate on enjoying the summer holidays with the girls, getting back into routine, making sure Chris gets to a more stable point again and maybe then I could have a bit of a rest too?
I look forward to creating new memories in our new house and making it our home. I know for now the road still looks long and very bumpy but at least we have now put behind us something that was always going to be inevitable.