Things have been a bit difficult for me lately since I was unwell; however I am trying to get back on track. This week I received a phone call from my doctor’s surgery to inform me that my name had been put down on a list of people to phone regarding a choir someone was setting up in our area. Hearing the word choir my ears immediately pricked up and I really tuned into the conversation. I love singing, I wouldn’t say I am very good but I love nothing more than turning up some music and singing my lungs out to it, because for me music makes me feel good. I just get lost in my own world and it takes me away from my problems. So when asked if I would indeed be interested I said yes, I was then informed the first one was ‘a little short notice’ well forget a little, more like a lot as it was for the same evening so agreed to have my name put forward as a question mark.
The more I pondered with the possibility of joining a choir the more I was getting excited and agreed I would attend that evening even if only to find out more about what their ideas and plans were and if I would fit in with that. Being the evening, it was perfect, the girls would all be in bed before I left and I could ask Chris dad to sit in with him, this was finally looking like something I could do for me, as Sarah, and that was a nice feeling. Chris dad agreed to sit in with them and when the time came I took myself to where the choir was to meet, nervous but equally excited. Once I had completed the rather dark but short walk I took a deep breath and entered through an extremely squeaky door. It turns out they are mainly gathering interest at the moment, we sang a couple of songs and agreed to all meet again the next week bringing anyone interested along as well.
I walked home, for the hour and a half I had been away although short to some was huge to me and I felt recharged, like life had just got that little bit easier. I held my music and reaching the house thought someone somewhere was looking after me, it couldn’t have come at a better time, I needed this now more than ever. I agreed with Chris and his dad that I would be attending again the following week and as many as I could thereafter. Maybe just maybe I could be Sarah, even just for a little while.