Through the eyes of a carer for someone with a mental illness

Out of the blue, a Choir!

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Things have been a bit difficult for me lately since I was unwell; however I am trying to get back on track. This week I received a phone call from my doctor’s surgery to inform me that my name had been put down on a list of people to phone regarding a choir someone was setting up in our area. Hearing the word choir my ears immediately pricked up and I really tuned into the conversation. I love singing, I wouldn’t say I am very good but I love nothing more than turning up some music and singing my lungs out to it, because for me music makes me feel good. I just get lost in my own world and it takes me away from my problems. So when asked if I would indeed be interested I said yes, I was then informed the first one was ‘a little short notice’ well forget a little, more like a lot as it was for the same evening so agreed to have my name put forward as a question mark.

The more I pondered with the possibility of joining a choir the more I was getting excited and agreed I would attend that evening even if only to find out more about what their ideas and plans were and if I would fit in with that. Being the evening, it was perfect, the girls would all be in bed before I left and I could ask Chris dad to sit in with him, this was finally looking like something I could do for me, as Sarah, and that was a nice feeling. Chris dad agreed to sit in with them and when the time came I took myself to where the choir was to meet, nervous but equally excited. Once I had completed the rather dark but short walk I took a deep breath and entered through an extremely squeaky door. It turns out they are mainly gathering interest at the moment, we sang a couple of songs and agreed to all meet again the next week bringing anyone interested along as well.

I walked home, for the hour and a half I had been away although short to some was huge to me and I felt recharged, like life had just got that little bit easier. I held my music and reaching the house thought someone somewhere was looking after me, it couldn’t have come at a better time, I needed this now more than ever. I agreed with Chris and his dad that I would be attending again the following week and as many as I could thereafter. Maybe just maybe I could be Sarah, even just for a little while.


Author: acarerseyes

I am a mum to four gorgeous girls, and a carer to my former partner of eight years, Chris who has a mental illness, BPD. I blog my experiences.. life is tough! We live in Greater Manchester, UK.

One thought on “Out of the blue, a Choir!

  1. That is great to hear, you having time for *YOU* for once, doing something that you enjoy, and something that for the most part fits in with your schedule.
    Nothing ever seems to go or feel right when we are feeling sick, hopefully you will start to feel better soon, I am pleased to hear that your out there doing something that you enjoy, something that involves other people, something where you can find a release……………good on ya 😉 ((hugs)) Angel

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