Well after Chris was told last week he has tonsillitis, he got worse not better with taking the antibiotics so today we went back to the doctors where he was given more. His tonsils are still huge and gunky, his temperature keeps going high and I have never known sweating like it! This is enough for anyone to feel very rotten but when you already have an existing mental illness it has a big knock on effect with that.
The weekend was really tough, aching from a temperature was making his agitation a lot worse to the point he was struggling with the means to control it. He spent a lot of time asleep or upset, I hate seeing him get distressed, it makes me feel hopeless that I cant take it away from him. The trouble is at the moment he needs to ride out the tonsillitis so he is able to feel better physically which should in turn improve his mood. It is so easy for me to say this but harder for him as he’s the one going through it all.
I think people can sometimes underestimate the effect physical illness has on someone mentally. You might just think ‘it’s only tonsillitis’ but for Chris it makes his mental illness a lot worse. He was meant to go for one of his introduction sessions today for a therapeutic community but has had to put it off until he is better which is a shame but he needs to get over this first before adding more stresses in.